ecosikz
Jan 11th, 2011, 3:28 PM
Well I didn't want this to be put in the offtopic.. because it is something I put in my journal and decided to share it here..
I woke to find guns in my face.. the cops told me to get up.. I did.. they cuffed my hands behind me and cuffed my ankles.. they walked me threw the house and my mother clawed at my clothes.. screaming "NO! DONT TAKE HIM! PLEASE DONT TAKE MY BABY!".. they brought me outside into the midnight rain.. there I meet an FBI agent.. he showed me his badge and asked me.. "are you Nicholas?" I replied "yes".. he asked another question.. "are you wearing underwear?" I replied "yes".. He ordered the other officers to strip me down to my underwear.. and they ordered me to drop to my knee's.. I was wet.. cold.. and almost naked.. I began to look around.. I saw 10 cops surrounding me.. cops hiding in the bushes.. 6 cop cars.. 1 police SUV.. and 2 K-9's.. they search my house looking for weapons and bombs.. they found none.. I had none.. the agent approached me and asked "do you know why we are here?" I replied "yes.. I previous posted on a Bi-polar support group forum saying "I'm feeling so depressed.. I have thought about a plan.. and no reason to deny it.. I want to kill my family in their sleep and drive to wal-mart and go on a killing spree.. then I will do suicide by cop".. He replied "thats right.. 3 strikes Nicholas.. 1. you threatened to kill your family 2. you threatened to kill other people 3. you threatened to kill yourself... 3 strikes.. Nicholas your OUT!" He walked into the house to discuss with my folks on why they were here.. and why they treated me the way they did.. My mother was shocked.. I felt she was going to have another stroke.. and not survive this 1.. I thought to myself.. wtf have I done? I have created my own hell... their going to lock me up in the mental institution.. I wont be able to see my loved 1's.. my loved 1's are going to reject me.. I'm going to die alone.. in a padded cell.. I couldn't believe what was happening..
After my parents and the agent talked for awhile he came out and said.. "uncuff em.. you got lucky this time.. you do it again.. I'll make you never see the sun again.. you got me?" I replied "yes".. He replied "We're going to keep a close eye on you.. btw we'll make sure you cant own a gun.. and your on the no fly list".... I put my clothes on and walked into the house..
I woke to find guns in my face.. the cops told me to get up.. I did.. they cuffed my hands behind me and cuffed my ankles.. they walked me threw the house and my mother clawed at my clothes.. screaming "NO! DONT TAKE HIM! PLEASE DONT TAKE MY BABY!".. they brought me outside into the midnight rain.. there I meet an FBI agent.. he showed me his badge and asked me.. "are you Nicholas?" I replied "yes".. he asked another question.. "are you wearing underwear?" I replied "yes".. He ordered the other officers to strip me down to my underwear.. and they ordered me to drop to my knee's.. I was wet.. cold.. and almost naked.. I began to look around.. I saw 10 cops surrounding me.. cops hiding in the bushes.. 6 cop cars.. 1 police SUV.. and 2 K-9's.. they search my house looking for weapons and bombs.. they found none.. I had none.. the agent approached me and asked "do you know why we are here?" I replied "yes.. I previous posted on a Bi-polar support group forum saying "I'm feeling so depressed.. I have thought about a plan.. and no reason to deny it.. I want to kill my family in their sleep and drive to wal-mart and go on a killing spree.. then I will do suicide by cop".. He replied "thats right.. 3 strikes Nicholas.. 1. you threatened to kill your family 2. you threatened to kill other people 3. you threatened to kill yourself... 3 strikes.. Nicholas your OUT!" He walked into the house to discuss with my folks on why they were here.. and why they treated me the way they did.. My mother was shocked.. I felt she was going to have another stroke.. and not survive this 1.. I thought to myself.. wtf have I done? I have created my own hell... their going to lock me up in the mental institution.. I wont be able to see my loved 1's.. my loved 1's are going to reject me.. I'm going to die alone.. in a padded cell.. I couldn't believe what was happening..
After my parents and the agent talked for awhile he came out and said.. "uncuff em.. you got lucky this time.. you do it again.. I'll make you never see the sun again.. you got me?" I replied "yes".. He replied "We're going to keep a close eye on you.. btw we'll make sure you cant own a gun.. and your on the no fly list".... I put my clothes on and walked into the house..