F*ck Xmas And Bah Humbug

[medicvet]

Well I've been having a shitfuck time of it. My jeep was stolen along with my cell and the superwalmart xmas presents in the bags in the jeep. Police are looking for the jeep..another cell on the way cus of the insurance, and I had full coverage because was still paying on it, but don't know for weeks if the insurance will pay the lien plus enough for a down on another car, just enough to pay the lien..or if I will actually end up still owing money on the lien after the insurance...or if they do recover my stolen jeep, which is what I am really praying hard for but I still don't think even if they find my jeep that I will ever get the presents back..wasn't really much to some, and not compared to the car, but it was nearly 200 dollars of stuff for my folks and kids. I felt so incredibly stupid when I had done the Christmas shopping, and decided to put it in the jeep because I saw my son wandering around with some of his friends and didn't want them to accidentally see anything I had gotten..then went back in and did the grocery shopping part of my shopping, and DID run into my son, and we talked and he helped me pick out a honeyham and stuff and we got out, and I couldn't find my jeep.

And realized I had left the motherfucking key in the door. It was gone. My son called one of his friends still in the store to get my groceries home while I did the police report.

My daughter is going to NY to be with my ex's family, my son and folks will do the Christmas thing, but I am glad not to even have to fucking bother with a tree in my house..I am SO not in a Christmas mood. Usually get a bit blue around this time of year anyways but try to cover it up. My older son was born Christmas Day '89 and died a little less than six months later from a rare infantile form of muscalar dystrophy, so Christmases are hard. I have to pretend to be happier than I am and usually get burned out on the forced gaiety.

At least this time I don't have to pretend to have much to be in the spirit or whatever about. I have been so depressed this is the first time I got out of bed in the days since the the robbery. I am pretty sure Ronny and my folks will understand I just walk over on Christmas Day and just hang around for an hour tops then walk back to my house. I am actually glad there is nothing at my house that is 'chrismasy' and I hadn't done any 'decorating' yet. And for the first time, I am actually not just 'understanding' but relieved that when I moved a few blocks away that Ronny decided to stay with his room (he is 15 and able to decide that for himself I figured.) at my folks house.

bah humbug. But tell me that even without the stolen jeep that I am not the only one that doesn't care much for the holiday? Anyone?

[Nu Kua]

I think you have every right to be sad and miserable right now. That totally sucks.
(((Medicvet)))
I'll "light a candle" for you. You need to see some beauty.


We celebrate Yule, not Christmas here. We do gift, but luckily years ago we broke away from the total commercialism of it all. It sometimes gets a little tight, but not so much that we get stressed about it.
We usually make cookie ornaments every year, and always go to see the lights at Shore Acres.

This year we're doing Italian for the dinner. I am making a huge lasagna, and maybe some pizza too.

[Cherisa]

People seem to have alot of trouble around this time of year.. The planets are lining up and makes us gloomy. things will get really hairy around the 20 to 24th

[Assassin X]

As much as I may be like "I hate idiots that want to ban crap like the word "Christmas" I still hate the holiday non the less lol. Although really I hate all holidays. In this country if you look at a calender every **** day there is something whther its a holiday or some STUPID made up week/month/THING. "Guess what? Its TIE WEEK!" or "Its national slap a Ho day".

Who comes up with this crap? Ugh. Is there any day that is just....you know...a day? The only day I guess I really care for is July 4th simply because I sit back and enjoy fireworks. Other then that I could care less about what the stupid calender says. Although I won't turn down gifts on Christmas non the less, I am not stupid.

[medicvet]

I had actually forgotten about Yule. Is it wrong of me to want to now say "Merry Yule" back to anyone who wishes me a "Merry Christmas" ? I don't care I'm going to do it anyways.

I didn't want to sound whiny or anything but Goddess knows it felt better to spew all that stuff out. ( always wanted to find a way to put that puke smiley in one of my posts..ah, it's the little things in life sometimes..)


Oh and boy do I EVER hear you about the 'days' and even the 'weeks' thing. National flush your toilet week! Sexual harrassment day...yay!

My ear was buggin me yesterday but it feels better now at least..I was beginning to wonder if I was coming down with an ear infection or something, but am hoping that it was just a combo of my cold and all that crying..at least I woke up without it buggin me.

Thanks for being so understandin about how I'm feelin now..it does help some.

[Nu Kua]

Your feelings are valid, the pleasant ones as well as the unpleasant!
It is normal to be down sometimes, especially after what you went through.
I have found it is far better to validate your feelings, even the uncomfortable ones, than it is to deny them expression or at least, honest recognition.
Its the only way to "get it out".
(((Medicvet)))
You'll get it together one day.

I think it is the Gospel of Thomas where Jesus says, very basically, that what is left inside of you will kill you, but if you release it, it will set you free.

And sure, why not say "Merry Yule"? When people get in my face with an unrequested "God Bless You" I always smile warmly (and genuinely) and say very clearly "May She Bless You as Well!"
To return the love and maybe open a little mind window.

[medicvet]

WOOT!

I got my jeep back..some minor damage, and of course everthing that was in it is gone, but they got the mofos!!!!!!



I still ain't gonna do the tinsel and decorating thing but I think I can handle this season now~!!!!

And I do believe that there were folks prayin or what have you and want to say thanks.

[equalizer]

I am very happy for you. It does suck that you make a mistake and instead of people being good they rob you blind. Oh well hopefully they throw the book at them.

[Nu Kua]

WOW you are so lucky you got that jeep back!
Awesome news.

[loganosborne]

Thats great news Medicvet. Hopefully this is a sign that things are starting to get better for you.

[medicvet]

Thank's ya'll. I feel like my country record joke now..

you know what happens when you play a country record backwards, right?

You get your truck back, your wife back, your dog back..

Okay, that was baaaad, I'm sorry. I still have my stuff (presents, cell phone,cd's, etc.) gone, but my jeep is back and maybe this does mean that things will start turning around for me.

[Cornish Maid]

Lets hope so and don't go leaving your keys in the door again.

I know Christmas time is hard for you having lost a child at that time because I lost a son at the end of October 2001 and that time of year is always very hard.

[medicvet]

Don't ask me why this heartbreaking song makes me just a little less sad but it does. This is for our angels, Maid.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HU1Oa...eature=related

[steven]

Good to hear you at least got your jeep back last week medicvet.

[Cartesiantheater]

My little brother, who is Christian, works at Best Buy. When farmer type redneck customers tell him "Merry Christmas" he responds with "Happy Holidays." When they (some of them) then say, "No, you mean 'Merry Christmas'" he says "No actually, I mean Happy Holidays. I'm a Jew."

Their reactions are priceless, lol!

btw- it should be noted that he is NOT trying to prove a point. My brother is largely conservative. He just likes to piss people off.

Humbug! :S

[medicvet]

Well there is another Christmas out of the way. My daughter was so wrapped up in the fun she was having that I had to call her four times and leave messages on the cell until she finally picked up and said hi. My son has dyed his lovely sandy blonde hair pitch black, and I hope he doesn't go to far in an extreme with this goth nonsense. Sometimes he even paints his fingernails black, and his favorite artist is Curt Cobain..lord help me. I got some small things for christmas..those bath lotion and stuff kids from walmart, and perfume and loofahs in my stocking, and from my son, he actually went all out and got me a complete 'bath and body works' kit. With all this stuff to clean oneself and make one smell nice, you don't think they're trying to tell me anything, do you? oh well. I like the stuff anyway, lol. My son got the second and third pirates movie from me, and an IOU for a hundred dollar shopping spree at the Ft. Smith Mall once I get my check, which will be arriving on the 31st since the 1st is a holiday. My daughter is in New York, and is going to be able to see the ball drop in person, which sounds really cool. I hope she rememebers to call me and tell me about where she is at so I can watch the new year's eve show with my eyes glued to the set in hope that I will see her.

I am VERY worried about my dog. He is right about at 12 yrs old, and today, he threw up twice, which he will do sometimes if something doesn't agree with him...but then he shit blood...twice..I am taking him to the vet first thing in the morning. The doc said to give him a bit of pepto for the nice, and if he gets anything higher than the low grade fever he had, to bring him to the 24hr place in Ft. Smith...which is an hour away. I didn't have the heart to tell her that I didn't have any gas in my car to get that far, let alone have the money to pay the vet. I just asked her if she could see him in the morning, and that I would pay as soon as I could, then when I told my dad about it, he says call in the am and he will take Sammy and I down to the vets. I really hate to see him like this..he is so lethargic, and when I pick him up, he seems so warm. Rather than trying to get liquid pepto down him, I put a childrens chewable tablet in a vienna sausage, but he didn't want to eat, which REALLY began to worry me. Finally I quite bothering with the vienna sausage, and just took the pill and opened up his mouth and stuck it deep down his throat, and it stayed put at last. He got up off the courch to lay on his little blanket area by my puter, then moved off of it and laid more on the carpeted floor, and i will call him by name and he won't even lift his head. I am worried sick about him. Even at 12, he is still my baby..my next oldest (and human too, lol!) is Ronny at 15 and then NIcki at 19.